First Post

Okay I've been debating starting a blog and I've finally decided to do it! What the hell it can't hurt.

Okay so a little bit about me, I'm 29, married for a year and a bit, and I am trying for our first child. My DH works in real estate development and I am an accountant.  This blog is to help me during this TTC process as it has been quite the roller coaster.  I definitely never thought that I would have this much trouble.  I'll give you the overview of my journey thus far.

So we started trying in July, and I had a 60 something day cycle that drove me nuts so I decided to start temping.  The first cycle I started temping I got pregnant! Woohoo! we were very excited.  Unfortunately I suffered a miscarriage at 10 weeks.  Heartbreaking.

So I started temping and charting again about 2 weeks afterwords. Low and behold the second cycle after my loss we got pregnant again! This time we were excited but now also very apprehensive.  Anyway about a week and a half later I got what was like a heavy period and we new we had suffered a chemical pregnancy.  Heartbreak again.  I went on to have the worst cycle ever.  I had positive tests for 6 weeks! I had mid cycle bleeding and no ovulation.  ugh.

Now I am finally on to a normal cycle.  Yes after 9 months of trying I really don't have that many normal full charts that don't include a pregnancy or a weird cycle after miscarriage.  I don't even really know for sure what my regular LP is or when I usually ovulate.   I seem to have no trouble getting pregnant, I just have trouble staying pregnant.  I haven't really decided which is worse.

So now I am on cycle 7 month 9 and I am currently just waiting to O.  I like the 2ww much better than waiting to O.  Mainly because I am unsure of when my regular O time is.  I've O'd as early as CD9 and as late as CD32.  Anyway this cycle I ran out of OPK's and just decided to not use them.  What a mistake that was.  I'm really hoping it happens in the next couple of days, otherwise we are going to be having a lot of sex this month.  Not that that is necessarily a bad thing, it's just i'd rather have sex when I want to and not when I think I might be ovulating.

I have recently started telling close friends and family that we are TTC and about my miscarriages.  Mainly because the whole thing is a very lonely experience.  I also feel bad that my H has to be the only one to listen to me vent or cry or whatever.  He deserves a break.  I have a very close family so it was a relief to let them in and get it off my chest.  My mom totally new something was up as I have not been myself these days.

On a happy note I am going to Vegas for May long weekend! My sisters and their hubbies will be joining us! I am sooo excited! It was a birthday present from my H, he is the awesomest guy! I am really really trying to get back into shape for bikini season.  It's really hard, as I have been slacking on the running and eating this winter/spring.

Sorry if this seems like a ramble and kind of a mess, I'm new to this and I'm having a hard time getting my thoughts out in an organized way.