What to do

So here I am CD 33 and no O in sight.  FF gave me dotted crosshairs and I'm a little unsure as to why as there definitely has not been a temp shift.  I called my doctor this morning and I have an appointment with him on Friday to get a referral to a specialist.  I'm done with all the waiting, I want some answers.  I'm very curious as to what my doctor will say.  I don't know why but I'm kind of dreading this appointment.  I feel like my doctor is going to think I'm impatient or something, even though our one year mark is in two weeks.

I realized over the weekend that I have O'd once since my CP in February. Booo.

Frustrated

CD 27 and no O in sight.  I had fertile CM last week and now nothing.  My OPK's have been very negative as well.  I don't know what is going on.  I'm so frustrated. This whole year has just been soooooo frustrating!!! I kind of just want to yell at something right now.

DH and I talked about getting testing done next month.  He really doesn't want to, but he said if I really want to then he will of course.  I don't really know what the point would be as I'm not ready to start any sort of fertility treatment.  I think I might just get blood work done for low progesterone and leave it at that, because if that's the problem it's an easy fix.  I'm also going to call my doctor to get a referral to a specialist. I'm sure there's long waiting lists to see one so I might as well get my name on the list.

I'm just having the worst day.  I feel just hopeless and defeated.  I know it's probably just an overreaction and I'll probably ovulate soon, it's just that one year mark creeping in that has me sort of depressed.  I just always thought getting pregnant would be easy and fun.  Wow was I ever wrong.

Time to get down!

Fertile week is here! I got this!

But seriously, I have a really good feeling about this cycle. I don't know why, but I do.